{"id":181,"date":"2013-12-31T01:53:45","date_gmt":"2013-12-30T23:53:45","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bigbernie.wordpress.com\/?p=181"},"modified":"2023-02-03T17:46:30","modified_gmt":"2023-02-03T17:46:30","slug":"the-smell-of-your-skin","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bernie.cc\/?p=181","title":{"rendered":"The smell of your skin"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

(c) Bernhard Friedrich<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

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The smell of your skin still lingers on me.
I\u2019m wearing your touch like a coat.
I still feel your soft skin on my fingertips.
Your hands on me.
Your toes touching mine.
Four knees together.
And your hair is still tickling my nose.
Your neck on my arm.
Suppressing the blood flow.
It hurts.
I don\u2019t care.
I won\u2019t move.
You on my arm, this is how it is.
And how it stays.
Lying here and holding you.
In this magical moment.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

It was as if, from outer space.
Like nothing I could have ever wished for.
Too real, too close, too true to perceive the whole depth of this moment.
Drunk from alcohol.
Drunk from touch.
Drunk from not knowing how it got this far.
How you landed in my arms.
How I landed in yours.
How we landed here.
We, here.
So close.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

And with every breath I take,
With every single breath in,
I\u2019m breathing you in,
I\u2019m breathing you.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

No matter how beautiful,
How deep,
How magical.
It feels timeless, but it is not.
I can\u2019t hold my breath forever.
I can\u2019t hold it forever.
I just can\u2019t hold it.
I can\u2019t hold you.
I can\u2019t.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I have to breathe out.
I have to let you go.
And I let go.
I let you go.
Please don\u2019t go.
But you go.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

The closer it gets, the more it hurts.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

But the smell of your skin still lingers on me.
I\u2019m wearing your touch like a coat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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